Why Minecraft Makes Me Feel Like a Kid Again
Two weeks ago, I finally caved and gave in to the Minecraft craze. I’d resisted at first, since it didn’t seem to offer much more than a giant Lego simulator; but a fortnight on, and it’s hard to believe how much my doubts have been effortlessly pushed aside. Minecraft is a fantastic game, and one that certainly deserves its giant, loyal fanbase, its own Las Vegas conventions and romanticisation of Notch’s success story. However, I still feel that my reasons for loving Minecraft are different to most. Instead of simply being a game that acts as a platform to build ‘anything’ or overcoming the dangers of the wilderness, to me Minecraft is a reminder of a time in my life when games weren’t simply about winning, or even getting invested in storylines and characters. It’s reminiscent of when I was young enough for game worlds to feel as fantastical yet believable as a bedtime story.
Search around the web and you can hear plenty of people’s tales about how Minecraft encapsulated their fears of scary things in the night, or the safety of the homes they live in, but I can’t say I shared these experiences. In fact, I play on Peaceful difficulty; there is no danger at all. For me, I lose myself endlessly in Minecraft’s glorious pointlessness – the fact that unless you really go for the tacked-on ‘defeating the Ender Dragon’ mission, there is no over-arching objective. When I play, I don’t see any allegory to my current life, and I’m glad for it.
A week ago on Minecraft, I finished that castle I wanted to build in the woods at six years of age. My friend Mikey and I spent a cumulative 25 hours building, from the ground up, a leviathan of stone and wood and glass and earth. With three stories full of banquet halls, libraries, art rooms, a keep that can be seen from miles around, a roof garden and a forge, I look up at it now and think, ‘What was the point in building that?’ It’s a valid question. It could probably stave off a whole army if it needed to, being a giant castle, but it doesn’t need to. We built it because we wanted to, and because it felt good.
This feeling of finding clarity in an aimless environment takes me back to the late nineties – specifically, playing the first two Tomb Raiders on the Playstation. I’m not an old gamer, and as such I was still that forest-playing child at the time, and my level of choice was usually the Lara’s Home tutorial level. In fact, hour-for-hour, I’m certain I spent more time in the mansion than all of the other stages put together. Croft Manor was Tomb Raider’s unique training mission, where you could learn the controls in a totally safe environment that’d only kill you if you went out of your way to swan dive twenty feet off a balcony. It was so much more than just a female Indiana Jones’ house in which you could lock the butler in the meat freezer – like my little Minecraft world, it was a home. I knew it so well I’d often spend my time searching, in vain, for any small details I might not have seen, details that couldn’t possibly have existed due to the graphical limitations of the time. I remember trying to reach the highest point possible so I could look over the Manor’s gate to try and see as much of the outside world as possible; a world that wasn’t there, but I can’t describe how much I wished it was.
I think the reason this resonates with what’s left of the child in me is that – and this might just be me – when I try to think back that far, being only five or six years old and only having to worry about grazing my knee, everything did seem a little more idyllic. It’s undoubtedly pure nostalgia, but I can only remember the sunniest days of the year, and that amazing ‘world is my oyster’ feeling; and that is how Mirror’s Edge makes me feel when I stop doing it what it tells me to. It’s not just visually stunning, but the way Faith effortlessly traverses any obstacles in her path is almost exactly what I would be doing in my imagination as a kid. The city is spotless and doesn’t show the strife and hostility hidden beneath, just like a child’s outlook on the world, not yet tarnished by learning the harsher truths of the society we live in.